Animal Farm(literally an animal farm)
Another day, a lot of hopes.
in the beginning, the subject of this post was sorrow and grief. and if any one of you reading this, I never wanted them to feel bad or transmit even a drop of negative feeling. so let me see the same incidents from a different angle.
from day 1 of our goat farming, I was so reluctant to touch animals. we never had a pet at home and I was kind of a person who always hates pets. especially the cats. we used to have chickens and I have a distant memory of my grandmother having several goats. once she milked the goats and asked me to give it to mother for making tea and the ‘clever’ me drank half of it and added water of it or I completely drank. that’s still a mystery to my memories.
anyway, during the lockdown, we started farming by buying three goats. a mother and two boys. the shelter for them was built by us only and it was a small space. then we bought another another another.
the point is I was so shy(i don’t know whether the exact word is for my behavior) to take care of them. my parents spend a lot of time with them. later we build a considerably large shelter and we had a smooth run.
At this point, we had around 5 children and 5 pregnant goats. 2020 was a bad year for everyone, but it was a proper life lesson for me after we had this thing. towards the end of December, I was in the kitchen, mom came with a sterile face and told me that ‘ one of the goats are gone’. and she specified which one. it was a shocker but not a big deal for me. this was one from the latest addition and I never had much more time with it. for the first time in my life, I have buried an animal after Chinnu, the dog.
so the dog was the cute puppy in the neighborhood. we used to play with her and she is such adorable. even though she is such a nice puppy I was just 7/8 years of age then and never touched her. to be honest I was a bit scared about her. there was a large garden in the neighborhood and I used to sit in between the flowers and suddenly I could feel a dragging wet cloth in my feet. it was always the pup. anyway, long story short, one day when we and our neighbors are out, enemy stray dogs executed their plan of the assassination of Chinnu and because I was so courageous then I don’t even dare to look at her after her soul left her body.
so back to late December, it started so cold in here and the goats also started shivering all day. we took them to the hospital and we lost one by one. now the shelter is so silent and we are silent.
the thing I want to state is, gradually we make up our mind that is strong enough to see the unexpected and anticipate the emotional floods.
the momentary ups and downs in the state of mind are natural and normal. if we still focus on that, then it is really tough to endure and ensure a healthy mental state.
moreover, life is the process we should enjoy now. it is not anything we planned. the moment that we still in here, it’s the most precious gift.
let focus on the things in our control, never worry about the uncontrollable realities.
